damn....

hey all,
I really wanted to post up some pictures but the com at this library can't read my thumbdrive....
well i dont know what i could be writting today so please bare with me...
hahahaha

first of all,
this whole month is one of my worst month of the year...
i just said what i said but i still dont know how to explain it...

and

i just get weirder and weirder each day...

do you know that i have SS-ing???
THAT IS SO NOT ME!!!!

do you know that the past week i have been going through those blogs selling
clothes and all those things???
THAT IS SO NOT ME!!!!

*screams*

what is going on with me??!!

ok i'm done...
dunno wat else to write anymore...
will update next time...

I'm married to my 4 lovely husbands & have a lover too~ XP

hallo!!!!

have not been updating a while....

so here I am...

well,

i wanted to post this up months ago but was lazy too....

hahahaha

my friend and i did this during lan classes....

hehehe

we were just too bored till we went back to our kiddy days!!!!

hahahaha...

sorry ms.Belinda.....

your classes are just boring....

hehehe

we did love couting...

and of course i did my love counts with non other than

DONG BANG SHIN KI!!!!!!

so here are the pics....

I'm Shim Changmin's wife!!

I'm Kim Junsu and Kim Jae Joong's wife too!!!!
*Jane,Jean and Zhe Rei is so gonna kill me*

I'm Park Yoochun's Wife XP

*Lee Yee is so gonna kill me*

I'm Yunho's lover....

*oklah... not bad de.... hehehehe*

hehe..

and yea this actually coincides with my september post...

hehehe it's about the statement made there... hahahaha

http://gkanotherchapter.blogspot.com/2008/09/tvxq-vs-john-hoon.html

What's wrong with me?

Am I physically impaired?

No

Am I mentally impaired?

No

Then,

What’s wrong with me?!

I don’t have the interest to do what I usually do

I still do not like to study

I am still lazy

I don’t give a damn to what’s going on

But how on earth do I continue?

I’m going insane

I’m going nuts

I’m going crazy

But I still am unable to tell.

These feeling I feel are indescribable

I don’t know how to explain

I can’t find the exact words

So I make do with what I can manage

It’s turning and churning and burning inside me

It’s so jumbled up….

I don’t know……

AHHHH!!!!

What’s wrong with me?!

Have you?

Have you ever had feelings for a total stranger?

Have you ever felt that you miss someone so dearly?

What if it was somebody you have not even met?

That first glimpse that had caught attention.

Which made you follow up that someone’s life

And then had you falling all over.

Have you?

What about standing from afar just watching that someone’s moves?

What about giving support when the someone doesn’t know?

Have you?

I have seen pictures of that someone a thousand times

But then just that moment that I see that someone again,

I have this strange feeling.

I long to just sit and watch every movement made,

Taking in,

Remembering

Then I long to touch that face

And I know

I had miss that special someone.

Have you ever felt this way?

Have you?

Another surprise b'day for Jeannette!!

September 17,2008
2nd B'day celebration for Jeannette!

-Jean's Macaroni and Mushroom Cream Cheese Carbanora
&
Julie's fried chicken-

-B'Day girl and her cake-

-cake cutting ceremony
psst! I'm the 1 in the background
hahahaha-

-Cake with ice cream!!-

-B'day girl and Jane when watching the vid
we all did for her.
(jane's part of the vid)-

During dinner, Lee yee gave us something very shiny!!!!!!!
tada!!!!
THank you lee yee!!!!
i'll treasure it!

-Five of us!
(check out wat's similar)-

Twilight!!!!!! & Happy B'day Jeannette!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my dad bought me Twilight series!!!!!
on 2 october, it's Jeannette's B'day and we went out to 1U to celebrate.
We went to watch a movie that is Mamma Mia and ate at Ms. Read...
Man, it's damn expensive....
3 desserts for RM40......
We even shared money and bought her new moon!
hahahaha
at night i went back there together with my family and watch Mamma Mia all over again too!
hahahaha
so here are the pictures!!!!

-the 3 desserts-


-Chocolate Brownies-


-Chocolate berrylicous Pavlova-


-Banana & Peach Crumble-


-the new addition to my bookshelf-

-myself and Twilight-


-myself and New Moon-

-Myself and Eclipse-

-Myself and Breaking Dawn-

-Myself and my Twilight series!-

Cameron Highland's trip

-My mum and I-

-My dad and I-

-my 'cousin' & I-

-RM12 scones-

-Strawberries-

-Myself and strawberries-

hey ppl!!! today my blog is mainly on photos...
hehehe its was a 3 day trip from 26/9/08 - 28/9/08

I didn't deserve what i have

As I sat there,
Right in that room,
I knew what was coming
I couldn’t face it
I panicked,
Not knowing what to do but just bracing myself from whatever that will happen.

I thought that my worse nightmare had came alive.
I heard the soft thud of heels on the carpeted floor,
The squeaking sound that came off when the door fling open
The sound of books loudly slammed on the desk.
All seemed to sound louder than before.
It echoed loudly in my head
I heard my own heart beating slower and slower as if I had no more fluid in me to pump.

It looked like a scene where it could only be seen in movies and books
But that very moment WAS REAL.

After receiving the paper that seemed extremely heavy,
I quickly laid it upside down on the table not wanting to look at it.
I knew of course that I was a disappointment.

She opened her mouth and the voice came.
I expected it to cling to me and hurt, bruise
but then, nothing is felt.

The words just passed by,
It didn’t hurt.
It felt like the words didn’t came at all.
I wasn’t feeling what I was supposed to.
Everything just slowed down, mellow and fade.

Do I ?

Trees full of leaves,

Lush green grass covers the earth,

Laid back, peaceful ambiance,

Well planned city.

All these awaits me…..

What is this foreign sentiment?

What is this nudge I feel?

They say a bright future’s ahead.

It had taken me a long time

to achieve what I have now,

it had taken me lots of effort

to finally manage to leave labyrinth

I have achieve back all those that I lost.

I’m not an exile,

I have those who really appreciated me

I don’t feel so forlorn anymore

I’m surrounded by warmth

Warmth like I’m on a green pasture that fills every inch of my unsatisfying soul.

Do I go for that one step ahead

but leave all that I have behind?

Do I not take that step

but keep what I have today?

It pains me.....

At the sound of your voice,

My heart beats with elation,

At the sight of your message,

My frown turns upside down,

Memories of joy just floods into my mind

Playing….

It felt just like yesterday,

That we have been together,

Sharing those happy and sad moments.

I had been wondering around aimlessly

Not knowing what to do,

Feeling so forlorn,

So abandoned

But this changed when I realize I found you.

All those years of knowing each other,

We had just been passing by

Exchanging hi and byes,

I never knew that one day,

You’ll be part of that something I was looking for.

Last year,

It was one of my most memorable year.

To be able to have found you

To be able to share our ups and downs

It’s such a privilege.

You have thought of others,

Placing them before you,

Thinking of only the positive to help you through the situations,

Wondering what others lack that you have,

Being grateful for who you are.

I admire you for being so strong

Being so altruistic,

For I can’t and I’m ashamed of it.

It has been is kind of you

To let me in to your other world,

Sharing it makes me feel important

But please,

When times are though and you feel like crying,

Cry!

Shed those tears!

Let it all go….

I know it’s typical but life is not worth living

Just to throw away…

It’s your life,

Live it!

When you’re stuck in a labyrinth,

You have to find your way out.

No one can le you out

But there are people to help you,

Guide you.

Don’t take everything and bare it all on your own.

Let it go….

Whenever I hear you like this,

Whenever I see you like this,

It feels so foreign….

I don’t know why….

I couldn’t bare see you being like this.

I couldn’t bare hearing you like this.

I felt it.

I don’t know why.

I couldn’t stand it.

I don’t know why

But that night I know.

I shed tears,

It pains me….

We shared it

And

We are in it together.

This is dedicated to my dear dear friend Chin Zhe Rei <3